Diary entry

Diary entry:

Dear diary,

I’m thinking about going through with the family planning method, ‘Tubal Ligation....’ I don’t know what to do. My partner wants me to do it, but My family is completely against it. My family are catholic and all, and they keep on saying, ‘God would never approve.’ I’m so torn between what my husband wants, what my family wants and most of all, want I want. Once I get it done I won’t be able to have any kids, but I think that’s a good thing. My mums just scared that i’ll regret it and want kids in the future but, I have never pictured my future with any kids in it. I can barely look after myself, let alone be responsible for another human being. It’s all too much. Any bets i’ll be that two percent of women that it doesn’t work for. The doctor isn’t encouraging it either. She keeps on reminding it me that if I ever decided to reverse the procedure, it will be super expensive and I have more of a chance of having an Ectopic pregnancy. I don’t how else to get it in her head that I don’t want a kid. Should I listen to them, or to myself. I think it’s the right thing to do and if I don’t want kids, then why should I have to risk falling pregnant every time I have sex. I don’t know what I want and it would sure help if everyone would stop confusing me. I don’t want disappoint my family and God, but if it makes me and my husband happy then they should be happy too.

xox Sia